While killing some time this morning before I went to work, I stumbled across pictures from 2002. The Summer of 2002 was, hands down, one of the best summers I can remember. I was running regularly, hanging out with friends, I found a girl who wanted “a little of my time” and I wanted lots of hers. I think that part of me is trying to reach back to moments in which I remember being…happy. And through emulation, I’ll be happy again. I think that’s a simplified way of looking at it, because the truth of the matter is that it’s not that I’m trying emulate the situation as much as I am seeing the things that I was doing (eg, running regularly, spending time with groups of people, writing everyday, etc) and trying to find constructive reasons why those actions helped me find confidence and peace. Running helped me center myself, spending time with different friends helped me get comfortable around different people and reinforce positive things and actions, and writing — well, writing just makes me happy. It also helps me learn about myself a bit more than before.
Running has been good. I did five miles yesterday and didn’t die. I saw a ton of baby ducks (ducklings? baby ducks?). I hope that as I get to running more regularly I’ll see them start growing like I did with the family of Geese.
Also totally kicked today’s Crossword’s ass. (58 Across? Village Voice Award…an Obie. Who knew? And 2 Down? Mixed Bag…an Olio. Still have no idea what the hell that is.)
—Me
ps. This American Life is amazing. This is an old episode but it’s worth a listen. I know I say this all the time, but I’ll have a post about this soon.
Also upcoming: Sajjid’s Bachelor Party Weekend; Sajjid’s Wedding; This American Life and why everyone should listen to it; the things I plan to do before I die; and…how 1980s cartoons are responsible for the doping problems we face in sports today.