Today has brought with it a feeling like something is off key. A detachment or a dislocation. Something’s missing and I can’t seem to find it.
There is one song in particular that I’ve always associated with a life that I’ve never actually had. But every time I listen to it, I get so close to this version of myself that I can almost feel and taste it all. And it’s not even a version of myself that I see, but a quick moment in time, a shared experience that I’ve never shared or been in. Obviously, this post isn’t helping as much as it’s just focusing and reinforcing the wrong things. Rather than highlighting what I feel is lacking in my present life, I should be reinforcing why I am here and why it is I’m doing what it is that I’m doing.
“Do nothing which is of no use.”
“Cast off your fear. Look forward. Never stand still. Retreat and you will age. Hesitate and you will die.”
It’s much too easy to fall backwards. Much too easy to do nothing. Much too easy to fall into fear. It’s about making decisions deliberately and then never falling back or turning away. It’s about belief…in one’s self, in one’s decision, in one’s support. Now, how to remember? How to stand up everyday? How to always run forward?