So the aforementioned show resonated pretty well with me.

The theme is essentially about fear and letting it overtake us to the point of paralysis. Putting the difficult/scary thing off until it becomes this immense, scary monster of a thing. And everytime it’s always the same. Whatever needed to be done in the first place pales in comparison to what we need to end up doing.

I’m scared of asking for help.
I’m scared of admitting I don’t know.

I guess I’m scared of looking weak.

While in China the fear is of my Characters class. Since I’ve missed some classes due to sickness, depression and stuff like that, I’ve fallen behind. In all my other classes I’ve basically cracked down and studied like hell and have—for all intents and purposes—caught up.

In Characters, though…I’m paralyzed. I don’t move forward and just keep on falling behind. It’s easier to not go to class and tell myself that I’ll catch up on my own. It’s easier to tell myself that everything will work itself out. But the only real solution is to go! But it’s the one thing that scares me to the point of standing still.