I hate dealing with people younger than I am. It seriously doesn’t matter if they are only a couple of months younger or 10 years younger. I hate feeling older than anyone. I’ve always been accustomed to being the youngest in the group. Ever since Kindergarten I’ve been the yuongest by at least a couple of months. I really dislike interacting with anyone that throws my life out of balance.

It stems from the part of me that quite strongly is convinced that the universe revolves around me. Right, it sounds egotistical, self-centered, etc etc but I’m a pretty egotistical and self-centered guy, so get used to it.

As far back as I can remember I’ve been shocked to realize that people have experiences different than mine, that people’s families are not like mine, that people’s socio-economic lives aren’t like mine and on and on. Yes, I was in a High School that didn’t break the proverbial bubble, but even in College and in the real world I see people different than I and I still don’t “get it” or even accept that they’re that much different than I am. I’m convinced that they’re just like me and that there aren’t really any differences.

Maybe it’s that people younger than I are so starkly different or perhaps it’s that they are as I once was and I can’t bear to look at them and wonder if I was ever so small and immature.

In other news, Deadwood is seriously such a good show. I came into it convinced that I’d hate it and not even get through the first two eps and next thing I knew I had finished the first season and am now patiently waiting until season 2 comes out on DVD.

The acting is superb, the dialogue is great, the development of the characters is realistic and the show has a greek tragic air to it.

It’s weird to say, but I watch this show and I feel as if it’s Shakespeare. The rhythm, the style of speaking, the metaphors, the characters…granted, there’s a killing every episode and 90% of the women here are prostitutes…but still. It’s an incredible show and I’m glad I’ve stumbled across it. I strongly advise you to go get the first Season DVD and give it a shot.